Isn't that LoNely?

And suppose I cried and said I think I finally learned my lesson
And I'm tired of spending all my time alone
- Carrie Underwood(ft Randy Travis) [I told you so]

Are people trying to get in a date just for not being lonely?

I come in contact again with my best friend during schooldays few years ago. She has been working under government department in KL for around half year. She told me about she's dating a new guy from Kuching who works in Terengganu- government servant too. They met during some course and then start the relationship since then. At first I'm quite surprising of her getting a new boyfriend in such a short time after suffers from a deep heart broken relationship with another guy. Maybe they are having love at the first sight, which I can't deny that. However, I remember when I asked her whether she loved her ex- very much, she can't even answer it. Later she told me that she just feel like somebody there to care and always be there for her. Am I being too sensitive to take that as afraid of being lonely? Now this new guy which they even talk about meeting both parents and a planning for a marriage. Aren't these all happened too fast and bit inrealistic? Maybe I'm not in that love before so I never ever can explain these. Nevertheless, she might be aware on whatever decision that she make and no matter what happen, I hope she will think first on what is she going to do and what are the consequences of every action that she take. Maybe I should just wish her happy dating, girl!

R.I.P to Bobo-Pictures

R.I.P. Bobo

Satuday, 25th July 2009
Time 0400-0700

R.I.P. to Bobo- my family's dog.

It was not a shocking news and we didn't really witness the death of Bobo, or we always call as Ah Bo. A trouble-maker dog and never behave as an obedient dog. That's why actually I didn't really like it when it chase after any motorcycles that by pass our housing area and the person in bike will come down and scold me. Eventhough sometimes I understand that every dog has their own preferences and weird attitudes. Maybe being a stray dog's children, thus it is not easily trained and well, Ah Bo is really hard to train. Whatever, 3rd sister surely be sad and hard to accept the leaving of her beloved dog. Guess it will be a tough days for her. Maybe Ah Bo is trying to make sis life easier as she will be continue to study her Master starting today.

May your soul rest in peace, Ah Bo. Amen!

Friday mood: Complex

Now waiting for mom to come and fetch me home for weekend break at home. Seems time pass by so fast and its another weekend coming. No matter how busy over the week, whenever its time for weekend, I have a different feeling and different mood. Some people might start planning for any activity over the weekend, maybe dump books and assignments at a side and starts to dress up for another celebration outside. It's what an university student always do as they do not have the pressure from the family, especially those outside of Kuching. Therefore, the freedom is there, the motor or car is always ready for rent, or even the nearest Everrise is always open welcoming students to stock up their junk food for another weekend. Maybe they might feel they are all alone, far away from their family, might have some kind of home sick. How come I never got the chance to even taste the feeling of home sick? The main reason is my whole family is in Kuching, and no other place to go, no outing with friends, no games or lepak activity with them, just go home and be a good daughter and sister. This may appear to any of my friends from West Malaysia as "Bahagia". Complex: maybe that's the best to describe my mood now. Of course being with family is the priority in my family, where we always emphasize on care and moments together especially with my busy daddy. On the other hand, I always try to run away from my best performing daddy. The pressure that I'm facing everytime I'm home could never be express in words as no one be like me. My friend always comforting me by saying that my daddy loves me more than other sisters, and thus he trust me more, giving me more responsibility so as to train me for a tough working life in the future. Yes, me myself always have been persuading myself to believe this is true and keep telling myself not to try to escape from this role as daddy's little girl. All I wanna be is just a normal growing up daddy's girl, not his personal assistant, am I too selfish?

Dead & Gone

"I've been traveling on this road too long, just try to find my way back home, the old me is dead and gone"..(T.I. feat Justin T.- Dead & Gone)

Its ridiculous to think actually how people can die while they are still alive, still exist in this world. Even JT talk about forgetting the past and live a new life, for we have been struggling in this world for too long, feeling tired and no where to go even though we have a home. The stepping stones are just too painful, blocking your attempt to travel back home, they are all Demons! Life has been another challenge, maybe when you turn your head to the east, see nobody by your side, and when you turn to the west, still see nobody in sight, it's all you alone and you're the only one surviving, on your own. Do not tend to give up, shall we end this old life and give a way to a new one. Surprise maybe awaiting you at the other end. People tend to stop at the junction when they forgot that any route that they have chosen, they have and should be walking with all their heart and passion till the end. Regardless it's a wrong or right decision, no one is subjected to judge this besides the Creator, punish yourself before you blame the Creator. Learn to act like a children of God.

Look like i gt a new teacher

Today i feel strange when suddenly receive a message in facebook from a guy which i dun even realise that the name is very familiar..Then, he told me that "I'm your art teacher in SMK Tiong Hin" and ask me if i still remember him. That time I'm in doubt. His name sounds familiar but how come I can't recall in which form i met him. After chat a while, I think should be in Form 1 or 2. As he say i gt change a lot, grow up already..haha.Also, he got teach my sister (should be 3rd sister) as we just one year difference. He's married with 3 princesses, now staying in Klang, his hometown i guess. Maybe i have been brainwashed till i forgot this teacher. Chatting with him make me feels like with a new teacher. After a long time of lost contact, it's facebook bring us back together to talk about the memories. Guess Facebook is not a place to play Pet Soceity only after all! XD

When the night is so hot!

Rainforest World Music Festival 2009: Version 2

Rumah Orang-Ulu

Picnic: Enjoyable moment

Making Kueh

Rumah Orang Iban

Display in Rumah Bidayuh

Rainforest World Music Festival 2009: It's another awakening festival!

We are tagged once we come in.

Views taken while lying on the ground at Sarawak Cultural Village

During Rainforest World Music Festival 2009

It's a heaven's green view!

Rainforest World Music Festival: This is a rain or shine event

Workshop in Iban Longhouse: 11/07/09

Unimas view from Cempaka

Match the colours of the sky, its awakening

learn to be something you're not

Trouble is a friend, trouble is a foe....(Lenka)

When something serious happens, people hates the feeling.
However, when nothing happens, people complains to be boring.
I somehow feel the same way. So lonely sometimes, so frustrated sometimes, feels like running out of the circumstances. When they try to be something that they are not, things might turn out to be good, for goodness sake who knows?

Know your green

when the source of the power is the nature, do not forsake it for the sake of humanity
when people try to abandon their responsibility, green acts more than what we know
Live together, stays forever and matured

If you follow the wrong star,
My love will get you home...(Christine Glass-my love will get you home)

never too late, never to far
believe the time is come when everyone will have eternity